Closing a Door

*Heavy sigh* I’ve written and rewritten this post a couple times now… The first time it was a 4 page document, and I went into great detail about how I was wronged by someone, how I felt totally taken advantage of, how I allowed a wolf in sheep’s clothing to override my intuition for the 2nd time in our 6 year “friendship,” and why I felt justified and right in my mind…  I have grown a lot in the last few years, and have learned that taking the high road, not giving the attention to those toxic narcissistic people that they so desperately desire, letting things go, and moving forward is the best approach for dealing with negative people and situations. There is nothing I can say here that will change anyone’s mind, or justify my side of things because all that does is bring me down to their level. I wrote that looooong document to help me process the pain and try to gain a better understanding of myself, the other person, and the entire situation. As I re-read it, I asked myself, “How can I grow?” “What can I learn from this?” Because even the most difficult, stressful situations, and manipulative, fake, and toxic people have lessons to teach us if we just take the time to process it and look at it from ALL angles… Understanding where the other person is coming from, that a childhood trauma emotionally stunted them, that they are not really living in absolute authenticity and their truth, and that jealousy is one hell of a monster, all of these things while they don’t excuse the behavior, give us compassion for others even in the midst of the turmoil they cause.

This year has been AMAZING so far, I have completed my entire list of goals for the year in two months, my personal, family, and business life are blooming beautifully, but as you know, all that glitters isn’t gold… I know that with great success comes great trials and that no matter how awesome everything is going, there WILL be inevitable heartbreak and closed doors. When you encounter a closing door, know that it is because you are worth SO much MORE, that there IS something better coming.. The doors that open will lead you on the right path, and those things that come to an end are NOT right for your journey on this thing called life…

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I don’t pretend to have all the answers, or be a “lifestyle expert,” because honestly most days I don’t feel like I quite have my stuff together haha I can only speak from the heart, from my experiences, and hope that it will inspire and help others… I’ve said before that I don’t claim to be anything I’m not… I’m sarcastic, blunt, and can be very fierce and protective if provoked, but I also LOVE my family and close circle of people I’ve been blessed with, I work my ass off for my family, career/passion, and have no problem being ME in all my flaws, hilarity, and weirdness! I am at peace with who I am because I have fought all my demons, healed from past traumas, and just live each day with authenticity and don’t give a crap anymore if people like me or not!!

When others talk negatively about you, it’s a reflection of THEMSELVES. So over the last couple months, I’ve been called loud, arrogant, slick, conniving, malicious, and even EVIL (hahaha), and yes at first, it stings, but ultimately it’s that person’s issues within themselves. THEY are the ones that are all those things but are too damn blinded to see it, so they try to deflect and project it onto others around them.  I’m always looking inward to maintain self-responsibility, acknowledging when I screw up, recognizing my shortcomings and trying my best to grow, move forward, make amends where they need to be made. Once you’ve come to peace with yourself, your flaws, and who you truly are, no one can use that against you, and when people say things about you, it just rolls off like water off a duck’s feathers, because you know what you are and what you are not.
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So, the major lessons here —

#1. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS trust your instincts… If someone or something feels “off” DO NOT ignore that!!!! Our bodies and souls pick up on vibes unrecognizable sometimes by other people, and they may even make us feel weird or wrong for having these “hunches.” But, having to learn this lesson the hard and painful way MORE than once, I can tell you, that these are NEVER wrong.. I had this person pinned 4 years ago for what she truly was, but let others supersede my intuition which was a HUGE mistake… LISTEN to that still small voice and feelings that tell you when something’s not quite right. 

#2. When a door closes, WALK AWAY. Don’t sit there banging on it, trying to pry the handle open, driving yourself nuts wondering why the door is closed. Pick yourself up, gather your dignity, leave it closed, and move on with your life. There are SO many better things coming your way, I promise! :* 

#3. I will reiterate this. OTHER PEOPLE DO NOT DICTATE YOUR WORTH!!!!!!! Let those haters hate, say whatever they want about you, but know that your beauty, your value, and who you are deep in your soul is not based upon anyone else’s opinions. The whole world could be against me, and I will still know who I am, continue to do what I do, and live my life… 

This last few weeks have been difficult, to say the least, but through these trials, I always come out stronger and wiser. Some may say they wish nothing bad would ever happen, but I’ve learned that there is beauty in darkness, there are lessons in hardships, and growth in pain. I write to heal, I write to process, and I write to hopefully inspire… Like I said, I’m no life guru, but if my experiences and my lessons of life help just ONE person, then it’s worth it. Close doors, heal, move forward, and do no harm, but also take no shit!!! ❤

~SK

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